Wednesday, May 17, 2006
ARGHH....MY MUM DUN LET ME BLOODY PLAY COMPUTER, XBOX OR EVEN LISTEN TO MUSIC! DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!! at least i don't have to be at home alot during the holidayz, she think that she bann me from all these will make me study harder, this is called discouragin and anti-motivation. she just came into my room and act as if she didn't do anythin, 2day went to mountbatten play basketball and met a few secondary sch ppl, a few from broadrick. THEY ARE NOT REALLY GANGSTERS, THEY MAKE BE LIKE PAI KIA BUT AT LEAST THEY WERE FRIENDLY, I FELT MORE AT HOME WITH THEM THEN IN MY HOUSE. now i know wad my house is for, it is for me to sleep and get scolded by my mum, any of you who know me well, pls dun think worse of me, but i just come from a broken home of hopes and dreams, i no longer feel a bond of family, i am now hollow, i know why some ppl would rather be outcasts then try to blend in with everyone else. better to be rejected and urself than strugglin to fit in and being cold-shouldered. anyone who would like to reprimand me can come and talk to me. this time i won't walk away, i'll make u regret it, especially that bastard who betrayed me 2day, got to hell u useless piece of shit.
this goes out to all those ppl who betrayed me, discouraged me, and tried to break my will and force me to be like u mongrel creeds: GOT TO HELL, U ARE NOT WELCOME IN MY LIFE, WORLD AND SIGHT, REJECT ME, I DON' CARE. journey down my world and u might understand what it is like to have no freedom and choice. (without choice, we are not men.) i find solace in rebelion, i am at least able to fight back and accomplish something in my life, anhilliation of the creeds and betrayers...
justin, lost,empty,alone and hollow
jt-dotz @ 3:09 AM