Thursday, February 28, 2008
after that we all chiong onto the court and cheer like siao lah. during teh whole match we were shouting and cheering non-stop. every time anglican cheer we cheer louder and drown them out. i have never shouted so much in three hours before. then we had the vs anthem, then they did a mass chioning, and then when tehy were going to do VS UNITE, i zao. cus my mum was calling....sian....haha
Monday, February 18, 2008
seriously, i tink i'm gonna flunk my chem...2mrrw got like, 3 tests, none of which are counted in c.a. and i havent studied for them. i've been trying to study my higher chinese, and those of you who know me well know that i suck quite bad at chinese. i've been improving but yeah.... omg im growing old talking abt studies...arrgh
recently just feel so sad and....sian, dunno why leh. after cny just feel so empty. isnt it supposed to be a happy period. saturday just had a talk with my cousins and aunts and uncles. then my mum started blaring to the whole world dat she dun lemme go out, dun lemme play games, say im too involved in cca, nvr study. pls lah, i havent touched a computer game this yr, (im not joking) i dun even like playing computer games anymore, dats what she's made me. i find going to l.a.n. quite a waste of time and money. and sports is my only other alternative for relaxing. and now she's gonna take that away from me too. wth? pls lah, every time i finish training she scold me for coming out 5 min late. i had to beg her to let me train 3 times a wk. ppl train 5 times a wk, one hour longer than me. she wants me to study, why isnt she teaching me anything? i ask her and she falls asleep.
and she totally likes the dog more than me. the other day i came home after training, i said hi to her and she didn t reply. scolded me and asked me to go and bathe. then i came down, dinner time all she talked abt was the dog, he did this, he bite that. wads so nice? and she says i nvr tok to her or try to communicate with her. all she toks abt is the dog. she cant even ask me abt like, how was ur training, how was the match or sth. all she toks abt is the dog, or scolds me abt my work. why cant she understand, sumtimes ppl dun wanna tok abt all these? i seriously am trying my best to study, but if i cant do it at home, just let me go to sch and study with my friends and seniors, at least they know wad im learning, and they noe how to teach me.
and my sports and cca are the only things i can do to relax. can she get it, i hate being at home becus i haf nth to do and nth she says is nice. i relli wanna do well in my cca cuz i relli like it, even though i guess most ppl cant imagine loving throwing and that kinda stuff...jumps and wadeva. she keeps asking me to change my cca, cant u understand! I LIKE IT....aahhhhh...
all my life i've been doing what she's asked me to..the only times i havent is when i did sth i liked.....thats how bad my life is